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Depression

Question
Posted by: Annie | 2019/10/02

Q.

The sad

Dr Simpson, in your reply (thanks for replying) you mentioned about that when you feel/deal with the sad the sad is not still there after, something like that, but I have a special needs child and as much as I love him, I find that deep place of sad/grief or whatever it is doesn't seem to go away, every stage of development touches that place, things, people, situations all diff things trigger that deep sad and as much as I try, that sad place deep inside stays, but I don't tell people that because they don't quite understand it, It's kind of like a pain that doesn't heal even though you try dull it out or do whatever to make it go or not let it get too much, I don't know how to make that sad place go away, trying to think from a positive view only lasts a very short time, the guilt, the sad, the tiredness and the future and reality just seem to sucker punch you deep inside. It's a very lonely place, cause I smile and I'm "mostly ok" to people around me, but inside I'm not really. I don't want to be the "sad sack" "the pitty party" that type of thing, I just want that ache inside to go away, but at the same time it feels too huge to "touch" , I don't know how to explain it. That's a time in my life after I gave birth in the hospiital and we were told the news, it was like somehow my child and I became distant from the rest of the world and apart of me never "quite left there" it was years ago but it is still like just the other day and sometimes for a split second you think it's a "dream" then of course it's not. Ok I'm waffling again, I really shouldn't type these things late at night, because I say more than i normally would and then i get "writers remorse" after. Anyway it is what it is, i just want that deep sad place not to be inside and i want to be the mother my child needs me to be, i just feel i have failed him. Anyway time to end the pathetic wo is me party and try to go to sleep, or wait for my sleeping pill to kick in, that's quicker ?? Thanks for listening again Annie

Expert's Reply

A.

Depression expert
- 2019/10/03

Hello Annie
Have you has a proper psychiatric/psychological assessment and diagnosis, and proper treatment, related to that  ? There are several types of depression that can have just the sort of effects you describe, including Post Natal Depression, which comes on after childbirth. Medication can help, and also psychological treatments like CBT ( Cognitive-Behaviour therapy ) .
I feel worried that though from your description you have been suffering unpleasantly from depression, you don't mention consulting any appropriate specialist(s) or having any treatment.

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