Sorry to hear that your mum killed herself ; but I am certain that if he had known you might feel you should "follow in her footsteps" she would have been horrified. You may be feeling suicidal and depressed, but this would mean you have the duty to see good shrinks for assessment, help and advice, so as to rid yourself of the depression, and discover how to find contentment in the long life ahead of you which is available
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