Sorry to hear of your unpleasant state right now. What you're describing is a significant and complex bipolar disorder, too complex to be managed online, which must be taken seriously and treated carefully. You mention a complex range of drugs, which must have been prescribed by a specialist psychiatrist, and it is probably back to him you should go, to frankly tell him just how you feel, and discuss your treatment options.
I m so sad to hear that your husband is one of those deeply foolish and ignorant folk who "don't believe in depression", as though it, or indeed anything, needs his belief in order to exist. Make sure you discuss this situation with friends and family members, so they're aware of this dangerous ignorance, and so you my lean on them rather than him, for support.
Do not do anything to harm yourself ; take care of yourself ; you're worth it and deserve it.
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