Our expert says:
Thanks for being open. Life can feel sickening and hopeless at times. And maybe it feels as though "everything I try and do just goes horribly wrong", but that's fortunately unlikely to be true. You may burn the toast and quarrel with a friend, but probably didn't spill the breakfast cereal or kick the cat. Ending your life would, whether or not you can see it at present, only CAUSE problems for innocent others, and would not solve any problems for you or them. DO arrange as a matter of urgency to see a good local shrink, even via the nearest casualty department, and be as open with them, and get treatment to relieve this gloom and find your way forward again.
As anonym says, there is a high risk with all methods, that the attempt will fail and could leave you with every problem you currently have, and then a lot more, including damage caused by the attempt. Don't do it. Cal Lifeline as a first step, and work through this crisis.
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