Our expert says:
Its not at all uncommon for trauma like this to affect you behaviourally and psychologically some time later. The cheating and dangerous situations is of course risky and needs to stop ; sounds like your hating yourself ( and acting so as to give yourself reasons to hate yourself ) may be related to the rape. DO see a good local shrink for proper and full assessment and help, which ought to include psychotherapy, perhaps CBT counselling, to sort out all the issues still left over from the rape.
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