Our expert says:
it may be reasonable to want to make your life more fulfilling that you feel it is right now --- but contant excitement, etc., isn't a feature of ANYBODY'S life. Raising children well is of coruse something Great to do, and you can do more, as well as that, not instead of it. But it sounds as though you may have been absorbing unwholesome and misleading messages from the TV.
People who do become great enough to be looked up to and admired, don't get there by setting out with that aim in mind ( people who do that are usually sickening, vain and boring ) --- they set out to do something that is worthwhile, and to do it well, and eventually, by doing good things well enough, they may come to be admired. But even then, many of the nicest people who do the best things, don't get the recognition and admiration you might expect.
Maybe seeing a counsellor would help for a start, to clarify realistic and achievable aims, and to work out how to get there from here.
If the three children hated the stopmom ( probably without much good reason ) and made life miserable for her --- what should she apologise for ? IS she the one who actually needs to apologise ?
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