Our expert says:
I can understand, reading through this, how even the short version, needed to be long ! Sorry to hear that you had such a distressing and complicated childhood. Your mother going off and leaving you with an alcoholic father was unkind. Well, you sound like a particularly intelligent ( but not always wise ) person, strong and capable enough to have survived through a whole series of very difficult circumstances. You deserve proper counselling, whether via a school or church resource, to work through all the issues you have accumulated, so you can discover in personal detail, how to keep yopurself happy and contented and successful, without feeling the need to work so hard at pleasing everyone else. Maybe Lifeline can help ?
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