Our expert says:
I;m sure there's no general, off-the-shelf, broad answer to this question - so much depends on the details.
If I understand you, you did SOMETHING which other people would consider disgusting and awful and would lead them to reject you ? I wonder whether whatever it was is as awful as you seem to feel it was. The emotional deadness could be related to the depression or the ADs.
I'm not sure whether anything you do could make amends - it will depend so much on what specific other people feel about the situation ( and wouldn't they find it odd for you to be making amends if they didn't know what you thought your offence was ?
best to discuss this with your psychiatrist in some detail, to work out the best approach
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