Our expert says:
A "nervous breakdown" is not necessary, but you should arange to see a good local counsellor / therapist, preferably of the CBT format, to work through these complex feelings. You seem to recognize a number of important bad decisions you made in the past --- with the therapist you can learn what needs to be learned from those experiences, and plan a more sensible and less vulnerable future
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