Our expert says:
Blown away or not, you showed no committment to your husband or marriage by going to have sex with a many you really didn't know, after sending multitudes of grubby emails and chats for years, out of CURIOSITY ?
I agree completely with SK. WHy do you "still want to be with your hubby" ? For the security of his income, the home, and so on ? Because you've chosen to cheat on him emoptionally and physically over a long period, apparently simply for your own enjoyment. You "don't wanna lose him" but have been content to lie to him and deceive him for years ? What has he done to deserve you and your behaviour ?
As SK says, if you'd like to return to honesty, confess to your husband that you['ve been cheating, and apologise, divorce him, and then see how long your beloved other guy wants to hang around
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