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Posted by: cleaning out | 2011/01/06

How do u convince your family you are clean??

I had a terrible childhood I have no bond with my mother. After a 2 traumatic deaths in my family one comitted suicide infront of me then my cousin were murderd. i started using drugs. I had my own perfect family. 3 children a great husband, and a great job. Somehow i did this socialy with friends and in private with out anybody knowing. I did this for about 5 years. I used cat, cocaine, perscription pain killers, and sleeping pills to fall asleep at night after all the cat.

I quit my job out of stupidity, and lost my hold on life. About 2 years ago I just got up and quit the drugs. I still use sleeping pills but no more drugs. It was hard, I did it alone, no rehab, cold turkey. But somehow it got out. My mother went bolistic. She was never a mother to me! It had nothing to do with her. Maybe she even had a hand in me falling apart.

Last night she phoned me, and told me i am an incompotend mother. She has a witness who saw me sniffing a line on old years eve. I was dumbstruck. She shouted like a mad person, I tried to defend myself but to no avail.

I ask myself why do i try so hard to proof that i am clean? My kids are with this women at het moment. Till school start. I don''t want to deny any more. I can''t take it anymore. I even offered to be be tested just to proof once and for all. But my mom amd dad would rather believe a stranger who''s name they won''t give up than believe me.

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Hi there, thank you for your post. Recovery is about doing it for yourself first and foremost, and unfortunately the people we hurt with our using take a while to trust us again. But keep working at it and for support I suggest going to a Narcotics Anonymous meeting, you will be made to feel very welcome there. NA is the best way to maintain your recovery. You can find a local meeting at www.na.org.za. Wishing you peace and serenity in 2011.

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Posted by: Addictions expert | 2011/01/06

Hi there, thank you for your post. Recovery is about doing it for yourself first and foremost, and unfortunately the people we hurt with our using take a while to trust us again. But keep working at it and for support I suggest going to a Narcotics Anonymous meeting, you will be made to feel very welcome there. NA is the best way to maintain your recovery. You can find a local meeting at www.na.org.za. Wishing you peace and serenity in 2011.

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