Our expert says:
This doesn't sound like much of a relationship, and the ugly way he treats you is far too much to pay in rent for ANY house. He is abusive, and is exploiting you vulnerability. Call an agency like POWA which helps abused women, and investigate safe ways to escape from this unpleasant situation. Why are you worrying about whether he's all right when he goes out ? He's of no use to you, only a misery when he returns. Plan a safe escape.
If you are paying ANYTHING as rent, you have that available to stay somewhere else, and maybe family or friends can provide a safe house in the meantime. Don't give up without trying hard --- ASK around for advice and help and support. Isn't there someone you work with who might be prepared to share a home with you till you can aford your own place ?
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