Our expert says:
This must be very confusing for you. If you were to stay with you mom, surely you'd have to choose a good time and have a calm discussion, about how IF you are to stay there and contribute so much towards the expenses, you need to be respected as an adult, not controlled, and to have your own rights there. Or you can explore the option of moving to your bf, and, perhaps in counselling, try to work with your concerns about trusting people.
You are very far from useless, and suicide would be a terriible uidea, aas well as solving no problems.
Is it her or you ? With her history of 3 failed mariages, there's a pattern --- it's her. You deserve a good life for yourself--- move out. and maybe while with your bf you can save some money towards having the option of getting a place for yourself.
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