Our expert says:
Depending on whether there's medical aid or something similar attached to his job , and on wherever it is you are both living, is counselling / psychotherapy an option available for you ? The sort of fantasies you are finding comforting right now, including the drooling, are highly unlikely to actually bring you any happiness opr satisfaction in reality.
You seem to want to be able to blame your husband, though it doesn't sound as though he is actually "holding you back" - and if you left him, and failed on your own, who could you blame then ?
Why would it be in any way easier for you to start a business if you left your husband ? You'd have higher personal expenses and would need to fund the business, and without any support or encouragement, or anyone to discuss it with. Is that any improvement ?
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