Our expert says:
I'm really no more in the business of declaring folks to be nutcases than the Zimbabwe Election Committee is in the business of declaring election results !
And sorry, but I don't have time to read lengthy correspondence on other forums --- my own takes more time than I really have to spare !
Now. It is vital to always be sure of the distinction between fantasies ( which you may enjoy as ideas ) and reality --- even the most ardent fantasist rarely if ever enjoys their actual acting out in real life.
From the sound of it, you're right to recognize the degree of obsession in this. Remember in a real-life situation, you would NOT be in control, or able to direct it according to your taste or desires, because others would be involved. See a counsellor to deal with these obsessions and the serious potential risk if your temptation strayed closer to reality.
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