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Hi to you Natasja, welcome here and thanks for posting.
You're certainly in a dark space right now and having difficulty in seeing any light in your world. Cutting yourself, or any form of self-mutilation, needs to be taken seriously and I have no doubt at all that you require urgent medical attention.
A suggestion: it is true that seeing a private psychiatrist is expensive but if you're in need of specialist care don't allow cost to be a factor - you can go to the casualty department of any public hospital, where you will be seen by a doctor who will, if necessary, activate the psychiatrist on call. Don't wait for three weeks - get professional assistance ASAP.
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