Our expert says:
Sometimes, Inc ( pleased some aspects of the situation have really improved, by the way ) one has to find ways of avoiding these negative think-fests when one gets stuck in essentially negative thinking, like a car with its wheels spinning in the mud or sand. If you are eventually sleeping OK and feeling refreshed, then use this extra bit of time for some positive actions, chores round the house, hobbiers, whatever, something that doesn't leave you open to getting stuck within a cycle of nagative thoughts. Maybe everything didnt turn out the way you hoped, but then it probably also hasn't turned out quite the way you feared, either. I know that you are indeed a kind and loving person, and deserving of all the love in the world. And you remind me of a Marilyn Monroe line in one of my favourite ever films Some Like It Hot, where she sadly says something like "I always end up with the fuzzy end of the lollipop".
Isn't it a problem that we feel we must somehow have DESERVED whatever bad things happend to us, without recognizing that in fact this isn;t so at all ? Bad things happen, even to the best of people ( and you fall into that category ). Bad things happen at random, and also because of the actions of bad people towards good people. But the sort of people who really deserve bad things to happen to them usually seem to get off scot-free !
You have good work you enjoy, and great children --- that's a lot more than many people have. As you cotninue to work your way out of depression, you'l;l appreciate and enjoy this more.
I understand that you feel strange about being alone with "me", even though we all know what a splendid "me" that is. The counselling is coming, too. And what about seeking hobbies / groups of others, with whom you can share interests ?
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