Our expert says:
Why do you keep trying to rescue the relationship ? And why, apparently does he care so much less about it than you do ? He is not joking when he demeans you - that is what he really thinks of you. And if you really want to stay with him,, that must be what you think of yourself, too.
Your closing sentence is relevant - you seem to have very low self-respect and self-esteem, and should see a counsellor to work on that, and leave this guy to stew in his own juices. You know already, from long experience, that he will never allow you to feel good about yourself.
The information provided does not constitute a diagnosis of your condition. You should consult a medical practitioner or other appropriate health care professional for a physical exmanication, diagnosis and formal
advice. Health24 and the expert accept no responsibility or liability for any damage or personal harm you may suffer resulting from making use of this content.