Our expert says:
You've taken an important step by sharing these thoughts with us. You CAN and must see to it that your Depression is properly treated. Sorry to hear about your concerns for your sons. Rehab is useless unless the addict actually sincerely wants to change, and maybe he isn't at that stage yet. He also needs to do far more to help himself, rather than expect you to do it alll and pay for it all. Its sad if your husband would react badly to discovering his son is gay --- that need not be any problem in life, and is nobody's "fault", so anger is entirely inappropriate, and speaks more to the inner problems of the angry person than to anything else.
But you need and deserve proper treatmetn which could help you to fel happier and stronger, and more able to cope with this all. A GP can diagnose depression and prescribe good cheaper but equally effective generic antidepressants. And check out, if budget is constrained, what's available through a government hospital or nearest medical school. And maybe the Anxiety/Depression Support Group has a group near you that could be supportive and helpful.
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