Our expert says:
Firstly, I believe it is often very useful to write letters to shrinks, partners, bosses, whoever, about how one feels, angry or sad or puzzled, about them --- but not to post the letter and not to give it to them --- expressing oneself can be very helpful, even if the person it's addressed to never sees the letter.
Now, turning to your letter here. Re-reading it yourself, does it seem to represent the "wonderful" or the "manipulative" aspects of your self which you mention ? Generally, it could be useful for your shrink, who knows the background to all this, to read, and gain useful information from this. But it is really long and needing an awful lot of reading --- maybe a summary would be more useful and more likely to be used ?
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