Our expert says:
Isn't the really important challenge, at this stage, not to blame yourself for not being able to help that little girl long ago, but to work on the entirely possible and practical task, of helping the excellent woman she grew into, right now ? As for using the anger, applying that energy in more positive ways can indeed help, whether applied to necessary tasks in improving the lot of that present woman, or at the Gymn, for instance, whether with a punch-bag or in pure exercise. SOme find that art, dance, other creative activities help, too.
Oh, and pills don't stop you dreaming ; some make you dream more ; or they reduce dreaming for a time --- then you dream all the more when they stop.
But let's also face the central issue you raise. You are NOT to blame for anything that may have happened to you when you were young --- you were a CHILD and not responsible for any such events. It wasn't your task to be stronger then, or to stand up for yourself --- that's what parents / guardians / teachers / adults are supposed to be there for, But NOW you need to stand up for the excellent woman you ARE, and be as strong as needed to get things right and move on to the peaceful life you deserve. Sorry your shrinks were a little slow in getting things started, and seem to have let you go home while still a bit raw and unhealed, but keep working on this.
Vent in words, here, in a journal, wherever it doesn't frighten the neighbours ! :} Pleased to hear from Chelle how well my suggestions of alternative techniques helped.
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