Our expert says:
It may not be the commonest variety one sees, but this is probably a variant of Anxiety Disorder, similar to the sort of phobic feelings some people get when they find themselves in a situation ( like having to sit in the middle of a row of seats at a theatre ) where they realize they won't be able to rapidly get out. Even though they have no real reason right then to need to get out, thinking about the fact that it'd be difficult, that they'd have to excuse themselves past a row of strangers, etc., can lead to them becoming highly anxious. So, like you, they always feel they need to sit at the end seat, on the aisle.
It's not clear WHY this sort of problem happens to develop in some of us, but fortunately there is absolutely no need to know WHY to be able to cure it. Treatment is highly effective, both with medicines and with psychological treatments ( behaviour therapy or CBT Cognitive-Behaviour Therapy ). See a good local shrink for assessment and a discussion of your treatment options, and you should soon be able to get rid of this annoying limitation on your freedom.
And though GG's advice makes lots of sense, it's almost impossible to carry out. It's like trying very hard NOT to think of a polar bear. As soon as you accept the suggestion, you start thinking about polar bears, and checking to see whether you are thinking about one, and they tend to fill your mind. NOT thinking about something can be an exceedingly difficult task !
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