Our expert says:
Well, despite the feeling that perhaps you'd enjoy an affair involving some happy time spent with someone being affectionate towards you --- you know that the actual likelihood is that before long an affair would have added more complications and hurts to your already complicated and hurtful life. So that's not a worthwhile option to consider.
That you love and have a good relationship with your son is excellent. As for the fiancee, if you are both sharign expenses and costs, she can hardly, legally, throw you out ; and she cannot refuse to allow you proper access to your son, under any circumstances.
Perhaps the two of you, if you'd like to find a happier way to live together, need to explore affordable sources of marriage / relationship counselling ? Some of the Depts of Psychiatry / Psychology and even Social Work at the major Unievrsities and some colleges, can provide such services ( as can a few, but far too few, state / provincial hospitals ) either free or on a sliding scale relating to available income. Perhaps an organizaton like FAMSA can recommend some similar affordable resources.
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