Our expert says:
TT, what's right is often not easy to accept, at least at first. And what's easy to accept, is often not what's right. From your description, you sound so well rid of him, and it's not your fault ; feeling responsible is just a habit of yours.
Consider counselling, to work your way through this effectively, and to get over that negaive attitude that could delay your finding what you want.
And in your final remark, you put your finger exactly on a very important aspect of this. You're not mourning the loss of the actual rotten guy, but facing and mourning the loss of the much better guy you always hoped he might turn into.
You kissed this particular frog many, many times, and he isn't going to turn into any type of prince.
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