Our expert says:
Well, it sounds as if you have at least achieved not merely rehab in the sense of getting chemically fre of the drugs, but a good degree of insight into what you have done wrong in the recent past. FOlks who get hooked by drugs / alcohol, are often people who feel uncomortable in human relationships, and built their primary relationship with the chemicals, instead. What you did was clearly not a good idea, and may have been disappointing for the lady and her child, but fortunately, I doubt that they'll be "scarred for life", and should be able to recover, sadder but wiser.
You can resolve never to allow yourself to do that sort of thing again ; but also, obviously, need to deal with the problem of chronic loneliness. A counsellor can help you to work on the reasons for your loneliness, for your discomfort in having an honest and open relationship with someone else. Also, you could usefully look to develop some healthy and wholesome ( ie non-chemical ) hobies and pasttimes, to get to know other people with shared interests, and to get used to company and friendships, as a basis for later developing more serious interpersonal relationships.
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