Our expert says:
There is nothing foolish about you, and no GGP worth a cent would think anything the less of you for discussing your severe depression and suicidal thoughts. If your treatment thus far has been entirely by GP, it's about time you saw a good local psychiatrist for a re-assessment of your condition and treatment.
Two people you loved and cared for, have behaved foolishly and dangerously, but none of that is your fault, and nothing reduces your right and need to continue living, to find new meanings and pleasures in life, and to be available, IF you should so choose, to help and support your daughter.
As maria says, call Lifeline and SADAG, and arrange with your GP to see a good local psychiatrist for further help. You deserve it, and will before much longer, be enjoying the benefits of doing so.
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