Our expert says:
Am I understading you correctly - you married someone you did not love, because your parents didn't like the guy you really did love, and soon after the marriage, you resumed an adulerous affair with your original love, thus cheating on your husband and apparebntly also cheating on his wife ? This sounds like a situation likely to make at least 4 people very unhappy.
You are right to recognize that this is not a wholesome arrangement, and to want to do something about it. You could choose to end the cheating, though I understand that you don't WANT to do so ( in life we often have to do something we don't want, because it is right to do so. )
Maybe you need to see an individual counsellor to understand your situation better and plan a response that is fair to the two apparently entirely innocent spouses and their children, who could be so hurt by this. And as I'm sure you recognize, such a relationship can't be kept secret forever, and often becomes known when you least expect it.
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