Our expert says:
You're right : this is a complex issue, falling between several areas of expertise, but you're not crazy. People with psychotic illnesses of various kinds, often don't recognize anything strange in what they are experiencing, especially if the onset is gradual.
The reason I am hesitant to rapidly accept the suggestion that this is a calling to be a sangoma is that there are so many possible explanations for such experiences, and all need to be taken seriously. One area I think needs to be explored is that there are a whole range of neurological disorders, including some ordinary and some more exotic variations on Epilepsy, that can produce experiences very like what you describe.
It'd be a good idea to see a good specialist Neurologist, for a thorough discussion of your experiences, good thorough physical examination, and some tests such as an EEG, then a thorough discussion of the possibilities and possible ways to deal with these.
As you realise, the issue of where the boundaries lie for a psychiatric or neurological disorder is a complex issue we often need to explore, and one criterion we often usefully use, is to ask whether the condition significantly interferes with your abilities to enjoy you work, you relationships, an indeed to enjoy yourself in general.
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