Our expert says:
Well, it's actually true that money won't buy you happiness, though it may buy a more comfortable form of misery. And I've known and worked with a whole lot of very rich and very miserable people.
Don't live life backwards, looking over your shoulder. The time you spend blaming yourself for whatever you might not have done, is time you might be spending doing something else that might prove more useful. You sound excessively focused on ways in which you have convinced yourself that you have failed others. I don't hear from you how they feel about it, and whether they actually blame you for anything, or expect and want anything more from you.
The central problem sounds like a low self-esteem and low self-confidence, which can be changed by a change in your attitude to yourself. Are there any local support groups / self-help groups you could attend ? What helpful advice can other readers offer here ?
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