Our expert says:
As you know, murder is not only illegal but surprisingly unsatisfying. In the sort of awful situation you describe, there should probably be two priorities : (a) learn all you can from the situation so as to prevent such things from happening to you again ( and sometimes, even if you can't get back what the bad guy owes you, you may be able to take steps to prevent him from doing it to others ) ; and (b) free yourself from being tied with bonds of bitterness to that person, the events, and burning resentment - continuing to boil with anger and angiush over it, continues to punish you, not the perpetrator. This is not at all the same thing as the trivial and shallow "forgiveness" too often preached by people who have never had anything needing to be forgiven, but it is an important matter of not allowing your personality, and life, to be shaped indefinitely by what the bad guys did.
Do see a counsellor / psychotherapist to help you work through this. Continuing to concentrate on the perfectly understandable bitterness aroused by these events, will cause continuing damage to you and yours, which is fortunately not necessary and can be avoided.
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