Our expert says:
We're not all automatically equiopped to deal well with changes, especially those that might challenge aspects of life that are really important to us. Part of what you're decribing, though, sounds more like low self-esteem ( I'm not deserving of nice things ) rather than difficulties in handling change as such. Assuming that you will allow yourself to actually use and enjoy the camera, rather than just feeling guilty and leaving it in its box, this could be a new thing, developing a hobby, maybe even raising eventual earning possibilities.
Counselling, especially of the CBT form, can really help to enhance your self-esteem and self-confidence - if you could persuade yourself that you're well worth such an investment !
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