Our expert says:
Sounds like some degree of possible Social Anxiety Disorder, which responds very well and promptly to CBT ( Cognitive-Behaviour Disorder ). Do explore your options --- is there perhaps a visiting shrink ( this is so in some small towns ) --- or it might be worth arranging to a break with leave, to visit a larger town where you have family or friends to stay with, to have some CBT sessions. Also, explore online bookstores like Exclusivebooks.com and Kalahari.net and take2.co.za, for self-help books SPECIFICALLY using Cognitive-Behavioural methods for Social Anxiety, and you may find those really helpful.
And when you mention takin a drink --- unfortunately, some folks actually develop an alcohol habit / dependency starting with self-medication with alcohol when they feel socially awkward
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