Our expert says:
Of course a series of unfortunate events actually caused by others would also have been unpleasant for you. And then the poor decision-making and financial problems you've managed to create on your own.
What worries me most ( because everything you describe, though very unpleasantm can be sorted out ) is that you don't mention any treatment at all. Please arrande as soon as practical, to see a good local psychiatrist for a fresh assessment and a discussion of treatment options. Medications may be really helpful, but also ask for referral to a good local psychologist who can provide Cognitive-Behaviour Therapy ( CBT ) which is highly effective in treating straight depression, and especially good in dealing with the 'cannot stop thinking bad and scary things " edge of the problem, in helping you learn to assess and revise unhelpful habits of thought and behaviour, such as the drinking, gambling, etc. Drinking ALWAYS makes depression worse, and also reduces your degree of self-control, which would add to your other problems.
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