Our expert says:
Eating Disorders Expert
It's quite clear that you are extremely distressed by your position and That you have learned to really dislike yourself for the condition you face. I cannot just tell you to stop being critical of yourself, but ask rather that you consider small, but manageable steps towards living a moderated and healthy lifestyle. Try to not judge yourself by your weight, but take each day at a time trying to succeed in being consciously kind to yourself and edge slowly towards repair. Do not look for an end goal, but rather just look to succeed with living each day sensibly. Count the days that you live in a healthy moderated way rather than counting down the kilograms that you (need to) lose. I hope this little piece of advice helps.
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