Our expert says:
Doesn't it depend on the definitions you choose ? Where 2 children experiment together, whichever one happens to take the lead, without particular coercion, this happens to happen, commonly, usually not intensively or for long, and usually with no later ill-effects. Maybe it's not what anyone would recommend or consider desirable, but it happens, and when parents and others over-react, the kids can easily be more harmed by those over-reactions than from the deeds themselves.
Thether coerced or not, other reactions, especially in the long-term, are possible --- one is guilt, as you describe, especially if, as is also one potential natural response, one enjoys aspects of it. Another is the potential for such reactions as you describe as becoming as a habit inclined to work towards a rapid conclusion so as to shorten such episodes, or to see oneself as needing to be sexual towards others in order to be liked, let alone loved.
If there are such lasting effects, seeing a good local counsellor is a good idea, to work through whatever issues still persist for you. The anger you feel now, for instance, which doesn't change the situation of what happened, but it unpleasant and unhelpful for you
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