Our expert says:
Don't do it. Please. among so many other good reasons for not doing it, it is never wise to insist on taking an irreversible step to solve reversible and remediable problems. There is also, whatever method is used, a high risk of surviving with your problems intact, but significantly damaged by the attempt.
Dependency can be annoying to others, but for Pete's sake, with the right sort of CBT-oriented therapist / counsellor, you can learn to be independent and capable.
If you've been causing the crap in your life, in a way that's good news, because you can learn to stop doing that - whereas the crap caused by outside forces sometimes can't be changed so easily.
And it sounds as though you've been trying to do this all on your own, without the proper expert assistance to solve problems. That's never wise.
And there's no such thing as simple hanging - and surviving with all your problems plus brain damage is not an improvement, especially when the problems are otherwise soluble with the right help and your own sincere participation in their solution.
Its common for people to experience what you describe as a mild sense of relief having made a potentially fatal decision to harm oneself. But that's a false sense of relief.
Like can be awful at times - I'm not going to tell you it's always blissful and jolly. But it includes good stuff to. If you find it tedious na dlarming - what if death turns out to be not what you expect ? Its like sneaking out the exit door at a cinema, and then realizing you can't get back in.
And Nia raises the very important point of the cruel suffering inflicted on loved ones, friends, even acquaintances.
And read and re-read the excellent comments from Liza, Nia, and qwerty.
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