Hi Doc.....I have been working in the psychiatric field for more than 10 yrs.....It was always a matter a great concern when a pt started talking about suicide....every body wanted to help, exct. I always thought its very selfish to considder suicide.....and I connected it to being very depressed. But lately I have been feeling more and more lonely and isolated and suicide has became an alternative to me as part of my options for problemsolving. I am surprised about how rational I think about this.....its not an emotional state where I cant think straight. It has started to become a reality to me that this is actually possible. Where I always saw it as being selfish, I am at this point now and I dont see it as being selfish......I look at my 2 young children and think that they will be sad, but somehow they will be fine without me....I look at my husband and think, this will set him free to have more time to himself and not me wanting attention and love anymore.....The only thing that stops me is my elderly parents who will be devestated. I now truely am at a place where I think professionals must respect a person if they dont want to live anymore....its their right to choose when they had enough? What surprises me is that I thought a person must be almost mad to come to a point of suicide....I dont feel mad.....I just feel sad, overwhelmed and terribly lonely and cant think of one reason except my parents, to carry on. Everything seems a waste of time anyway, we are all going to die anyway, so why not sooner than later?