Our expert says:
Suicide is not the solution - it is the problem. And as you surely found, it solved none of your problems, and indeed there's a substantial risk of recovering with all the same problems even worse, and with damage to your health to add to them.
Your situation emphasizes my firm view that it is rarely if ever sufficient to treat depression, especially severe enough to involve suicidal thoughts, entirely with drugs. You should be seeing a skilled psychotherapist to work on the issues of why you feel so troubled, and to explore all the other ways that exist to actually solve those problems rather than evade them or worsen them.
With something like CBT ( Cognitive-Behaviour Therapy ) you can learn to avoid the avoidable and to handle your triggers far more effectively.
A psychologist or a counsellor skilled in CBT methods ( maybe FAMSA can recommend one ) might be a much better investment than years of expensive Cipralex - if you're still feeling so suicidal, it doesn't look as though the cipralex is worth much, though perhaps another, generic and cheaper, AD might suit you in combination with the counselling. Treatment that isn't working is infinitely expensive.
And nobody should be treating you with any drug at all, if they haven't made a proper diagnosis by recognized methods, and designed the therapy to mach that. I wonder if perhaps you have been seeing a GP rather than a proper specialist ? A situation such as you describe should be seen by a specialist and not solely a GP.
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