Our expert says:
I'm really sorry to hear this. YOur husband is behaving like a bum. He can't think of any reason to come home ? Like being a husband to his wife, and a father to his child ? Please don't harm yourslf - too many other people have harmed you already, and you deserve much more and much better than that. And don't blame yourself - there seem to have been so many people in your life who have not done their duty towards you, and who ought to blame themselves, but don't. It's not your fault that some other people, important to you, have proved themselves to be rotten or inadequate.
You sound as though, amongst everything else, you are probably severely depressed, a condition that can be greatly helped, if you can get the right help. If you can't afford to see a psychiatrist privately, you should be able to receive help through gopvernment hospitals and clinics. I don't know the health services in Lesotho, but I know that would be the case in South Africa - if you go to a hospital or clinic and explain clearly how awful you feel, and ask for help for depression, they should arrange for you to see a suitable doc who can assess you and get some treatment started. Similarly, perhaps in association with a church, you may be able to see someone for counselling, to be able to talk through the problems you face.
If there is a branch of an organization like POWA< which helps abused women, they should also be able to help.
YOU did NOT turn your husband into a monster - he turned out to be inadequate for his responsibilities. Your child will grow up much better without an inadequate and abusive father than with someone behaving like that in her life.
And folks, the lights here are about to go off, so I'll have to sign off for today - see you tomorrow.
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