Our expert says:
Divorce support expert
So Confused, it sounds to me like you have provided a ready made answer.
It is normal to have an internal conflict when we (think) we love someone and yet we are unhappy with them.
You say you can't see yourself growing old with him, that love is not enough and that you deserve to be happy. To me, this sounds like someone who knows what she wants and has made up her mind. You still seek advice though and what I will tell you and what I trust in, is to trust in your gut feeling.
You have experienced a life with a man who gave you wonderful children, this was certainly meant to be as no children are a mistake. You have experienced a time away from him and you felt happy. You gave him another chance but the old pattern is coming back...you know best what is right for you and your children. You deserve to be happy and only you are the architect of your destiny.
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