Our expert says:
Caffeine may give you some wakefulness and energy, but that's not the same thing as motivation. And they may ad to the aggression, irritability, jumpiness, sleep difficulties, shakiness, and so on.
It'd be a good idea to see a counsellor, to explore what motivates you and what doesn't. Maybe some testing by a vocational psychologist can match your interests with your abilities, and help you clarify what you'd be happy doing, too. And the problems in your emotional life contribute to this, and could push you into a depression --- and it sounds like you may well be depressed ( and that further damages our motivation ) I sounds like you're far from over the divorce, and you should probably be seeing a shrink for a full assesment and treatment advice, and treatment should probably include CBT ( COgnitive-Behaviour Therapy ) as well as possible medication.
I applaud your determination not to give up --- you can get on top of all this, and find a happy and productive way of life.
And then, at the end you tell me you have Bipolar Disorder ? If you are not taking appropiate medication, including a mood stabilizer, it would not be surprising hat you have become depressed.
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