Our expert says:
Suicide definitely does not solve anything. Whether one is gay or straight, starting up with emotional and/opr physically sexual relationships can be worrying and uncertain at first, but one should not give up on it if the first few attempts aren't a roaring success. CTMOM makes important points. be patient, and you will be able to find what you are looking for. Among the nice people out there there are some who would prefer to just use others. And in the situation you describe, maybe the other guy is conflicted about being gay and about starting to have sex, and is wrapped up in his own concerns and just not actually thinking of you.
Do consider seeing a counsellor. There should be some available to you through student health who would be confidential and would not compromise your "closet" status ; there may be ( I don't know Potch ) perhaps a student society or a local gay organization that could point you towards counsellors who understand gay problems and may handle these better than others.
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