Our expert says:
Oh my word, it sounds like you are dealing with a lot at present! I have several suggestions.
(1) I would suggest that if you have the resources (i.e. private counsellors, availability of rape crisis or childline counsellors), go to a few sessions to help yourself adjust to your indirect traumatisation.
(2) You didn't mention whether you have been prescribed any medication to assist you (I also couldn't find your posting at a glance on the CS forum) - if you have begun taking medication, this could be impacting negatively on your body's ability to respond sexually. If this is the case, speak to your referring physician to see what else you can take to have the pharmaceutical support with minimal adverse effects on your sexual function.
(3) The sexual response requires the mind and body to be in sync in order to work optimally - thus when your mind wanders to anything your response fades; and when you think of the distressing images you experience, the response switches off completely (this is the reversal of arousal - drying up; and the consequent inability to experience intense pleasure leading to orgasm). Whilst these images may pop into your mind, try to remind yourself that this is not happening (to her) now, and you are allowed to still enjoy sexual intimacy with your husband. Try to ignore the images (don't try to get rid of them, that won't work) and refocus on your physical sensations. Possibly let your husband know that you have stepped down in arousal and need a little help to get back into the swing of things. You could also try to do things to enhance your arousal like using lubricant/fantasy, give your husband feedback about what you are feeling and what he can do more / less of.
Try to be patient with yourself - another thing that will maintain your current difficulties is if you get frustrated and try harder to respond sexually (this in effect takes you out of the sexual response loop because you're 'willing' it to happen rather than feeling the sensations). If you find the images persist for much longer, I recommend you get some professional support (e.g. clinical psychologist, trauma counsellor).
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