Our expert says:
So sorry to hear about this, GDude. Each death disturbs us in different ways. When it is a sudden and unexpected death of someone relatively young, it is upsetting in a very particular way, and on tends to feel a mixture of emotions - including sadness and anger ( at the iresponsible idiot who caused this death ) - and it is also an unwelcome reminder that death also happens to people like us, not only to other people, over there somewhere.
Smoking won't help, nor, actually, will drinking - and please avoid making long-term decisions ( such as leaving your job ) while you are still so badly affected by this.
Grief is hard work, but useful work, and takes time. And this is still the first day.
In time you will be able to remember your friend above all for the good guy he was, and as a reminder that really good guys do exist, rather than remembering him with pain and bitterness, such as is part of the picture now.
Remmber how he would have wanted to you react, and surely he would want you to protect yourself, not to be hasty, and to take your time to return to a level of normalcy from which you can remember him with pride and recalling all the good he did, and to follow his pattern.
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