Our expert says:
OK. You sounded like a very nice but very distressed and disappointed person. No treatment suits everyone, unfortunately. Sounds like you're in a highly complex situation, with several complicated conditions, where a good treatment for one might cause complications with another. Presumably you are being treated with more than only Ritalin ? Some of the alarming symptoms you describe sound more like occasional side-effects of other commonly used meds.
I am sure God is not punishing you, for anything, but I can see how you might feel that way. I find, in my own experience, that it's important not to catastrophize even when there are some highly unpleasant episodes such a you describe, and they are indeed awful, they're fortunately not typical. One tends to panic and guess that this is what the future will be like, wall-to-wall , when at worst it will probably only be intermittent. Do persist in finding ways to improve the situation, even if progres has to be gradual. And surely there is time between such episodes to do some maths tutoring ?
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