Our expert says:
Best to see a good normal counsellor, preferably of the CBT format, to help you look into this and deal with the current problems that may or may not be related to your previous unfortunate experience of abuse. That he abused you when you were young was criminal and unaccepable. If this has led to you having problems being orgasmic with others that's unfortunate and can be solved in therapy. If it leads to you seeking sex with him now, deliberately and knowingly, that is still illegal and unaceptable, and totally unhelpful. It isn't "sick" in the sense of being something you or others should blame you for, but it is obviopusly highly inadvisable.
You do, indeed, need hlp, and need to see a properly trained psychologist, preferably not one who deals mainly with abuse-related problems, as you may need someone with less of a personal agenda than that, but get an expert asessment and therapy soon.
To the person who asked about "too much sex", there is no such thing as sexual addiction, though it is a popular excuse, but in various situations some people seek more sex than they need, in an unsuccessful attempt to deal with other problems that need attention, such as low self-esteem. If you are in a stable relationship, sex once or twice a day, so long as both you and your partner enjoy it this way, is not abnormal. If this involves sex with strangers or other promiscuity, it is dangerous through the risk of HIV and other STD, and potentially fatal, so hardly a good idea.
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