Our expert says:
In any complex situation of Depression, it is wise to engage in CBT style Counselling / psychotherapy rather than relying solely on antidepressant meds. Yes, in the earliest stages of a severe depression, one may not be capable cognitively and emotionally of dealing ideally with the therapy ( also depending on the method used ) but its still worth aiming towards.
Don't keep looking backwards at whatver you think you didn't get round to doing in the past - look ahead to what you can still do in the present and the future.
I don't know what it is you do, and what you consider your "true vocation", but isn't there a way for you to move towards that vocation in your spare time, and in voluntary work ? As Maria says, first work strongly to get clear of the depression, than make realistic but more satisfying plans for the future.
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