Our expert says:
NEVER forget that comparing yourself to others is always unfair to you. You, you know from the inside, with all the secrets. Them, you only know from the outside, seeing only what they choose to show you, what may all be a pretense. And they are probably pretending just as hard as you admit you do in front of them.
You have a great family, something many people sadly do not have. Tertiary eduation as such isn't useful, unless it is required for some further career you want to move into. This isn't a great time to be looking for work, but there could be a better job available for you with your existing qualifications and experience.
You have a wonderful bf, something most women want and many don't ever find. DOn't assume marriage is impossible --- discuss it with him, and see what you can work out together.
OK, we don't talk of our problems to just anyone --- but there are counsellors, ministers, and others you can talk to, and who can be helpful. They wont pity you, only thinking of how you could improve the situation, and how they might help. Don't fear admitting money is a problem --- that's not giving anything away, that's admitting to a situation many people experience and can sympathize with. Check on the availability of counselling --- maybe chat to Lifeline, and see i there are local meetings of the Depression/ Anxiety Support Group
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