Our expert says:
Do they think you're not as smart as you wish you were, or not as smart as you'd like to be - or not as smart as you actually are ?
Sad and lonely people often learn to daydream more than most of us, even more so when they grew in an abusive setting, and may come to prefer it to dull reality, but as you've noticed, this isn't a useful habit.
There are so many possible alternative diagnoses or possible causes for the problems you describe, ONLY a proper, direct, in-person assessment by a psychologist would be able to identify what, if anything , is wrong, and what would be the best options for dealing with it.
The other thing that comes across rather strongly in your long message is that you sound utterly unoccupied - if you had more to do, many of these problems would probably be less noticeable
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