Our expert says:
Masturbating, of course, is normal, and people have a wide range of fantasies that accompany that, depending on their very individual tastes and ideas. And some degree of sex play between children is also far more common than most people think, and not necessarily evil, as some of us are told.
It sounds as though you had a sad, lonely, and essentially unparented childhood. YOur mother must indeed take serious responsibility for this neglect. What you did was not hateful, but ill-informed. And it would have had nothing at all to do with your sister later becoming schizophrenic.
However this obviously all weighs heavily on you, and you need and deserve properly expert assistance. Try to arrange to see a good local pychologist for a proper assessment and a discussion of treatment options. You should be able to move beyond this history and find a happier and more satisfying way of life, in which you will also be better able to offfer support to your sister.
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